So here we go again. I’m back in Exeter, in my new house, a week away from starting my second year at University.
Having just read James’ blog from yesterday, he’s actually said part of what I was going to say about first years on the campus, though probably in a far more interesting and gramatically clever way. Also, while he’s enjoying strutting his second year status around the silly smaller students, I’m avoiding them like the plague. I’m not really sure how, or even if, one year has really changed us from the lost and confused first years that are running around the university right now, looking for either their next class or cheapest source of alcohol. I went up there the other day to check some things online the other day (because I couldn’t live without internet for a day) and it was like a ghost town, the day before the first years arrived. But after going up there yesterday I think I’ll stay away until my classes start.
…I think maybe I’ve become more antisocial since last year then, if nothing else. I was full of an overwhelming need to fit in then, when I started university. And I guess that’s what makes me feel so far removed from those first years now. So many of them come to university trying to start a new life, pretending to be someone else. Well, I wasn’t quite like that, but for the first couple of weeks I was just trying to do stuff that wasn’t me, trying to fit in with people who I didn’t actually have anything in common with, and would realise later in the year that I didn’t particularly like.
Anyway, the point is that, antisocial or not, I just don’t care about any of that now. I’m happy with what I’ve got, I have much better friends back home than I’m going to make by going out and drinking here. I need to actually do well at university this year, while also working 12 hours a week for this new job, doing some website stuff for James, and hopefully having some time to do what I want in there too. While the University’s suggested amount of personal study time is insane – I worked it out that they suggest you do 50 hours of personal study per week, outside of classes – I do actually need to do more than the 5 (if that) hours per week I did last year.
I’m not being entirely antisocial though. Having moved into a house with 4 other people, I can’t really shut myself in my room the whole time. It’s a bit odd actually, I lived in a flat with 2 of these people last year, and they never seemed to want to do much with me at all. Since moving in at the weekend though, they’ve been talking about all these places we could go, all the things we should do, and actually talking to me. It’s not that I ever had any disagreement or problems with them last year, but we seemed to have come to an understanding by the end of the year that they didn’t want to invite me to go anywhere with them, and I didn’t want to watch daytime TV with them. Maybe they’ve just forgotten over the course of the summer that they didn’t particularly like me, or maybe they’re just making more of an effort now that we’re stuck living together for another year. So in return, I have been trying to spend a bit more time out of my room with them. Saying that, I did sleep til 2pm today and I haven’t left the room much since other than to grab a drink. I guess I should do that soon.
We even played pictionary last night. It’s amazing the things you find to entertain yourselves when there’s no TV in the living room. So after a 2 hour long game of me drawing dogs that looked like cats, and parrots that looked like dragons, apparently me and one of the other guys now owe the 2 girls a meal or something. Apparently we’re going to play for double or nothing on wednesday, this might be a bad idea.
There is in fact a reason why I’m being particularly antisocial today though. Steph, one of the girls in the house who I’d not met for more than 5 minutes before this week, is trying to get the entire house to go to dance classes. Since she’s on some dance commitee, Emma also likes dancing, and can also get Tom to do anything she says, this makes it difficult for me to disagree. Since I seem incapable of saying that no, I really don’t want to learn to dance, I’ve been struggling to find excuses. It’s difficult to flat out say no when I am trying to be sociable with them, and it’s not like I do much else. But I really…don’t…want…to dance. Fortunately I think after this week it falls on the same evenings that I work, but I’m having trouble getting out of it today.
I’m getting hungry now though, so I don’t think I can stay in my room all day.