They don’t mix. At least not any more. I’m really wondering what went wrong between primary school and now. Back in primary school I got the best maths marks the school had seen in years. By secondary school I had come up against a few people better than me, but I was still in the top 5 or 10 in the school as far as grades go. In college I remained in the top groups, but general laziness meant I fell down to a B grade. But now… I have no clue what the lecturer is even talking about with this stuff. Just looking at these formulas and calculations makes my brain want to cry and go cut it’s metaphorical wrists in the corner. Half of it isn’t even any harder than the college stuff either, but I don’t remember a thing from college after a year anyway.
I’ve said it before, and I’ll say it again. I think I’ve actually got stupider since secondary school. I may have been force fed some morsels of knowledge and tasty facts since then, but I seem to have lost the core ability to learn, understand, and work things out.
I don’t know. It’s hard to say how much of this stuff is talent, and how much is effort and hard work. I certainly haven’t been doing much of the latter, I’m just not sure if I still have the former.
To sum it up, this is pretty much how I feel about maths right now -
I am very tempted to write/draw something like that in the exam, in fact.
Anyway, Heroes is on now, and I’ve finally remembered to actually turn on the TV when it’s on for once, rather than watching it online a day later. So, I’m going to go watch it now.
